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Posted on 2006.01.03 at 20:51
Okay, so I'm not canceling this account, for use that I can write comments to people. But I wont be posting anything in here. I have really come to like my blogspot and the options in there. So if you wanna keep up with my life you can go here:



Changing accounts

Posted on 2005.12.15 at 14:13
Current Mood: excitedexcited
I've decided to close out this and myspace in a week or so. I'm wanting to use just one blog, and I've decided to use blogger, it's more targetted for people in their upper 20s and so on. I'm hoping to get a good community of youth workers and teachers by using it that I can bounce ideas and thoughts off of. We'll see what happens. I'm excited about it. Here's the link...


Oh, and my throat hurts, a lot. Today has been the best day so far, I'm super hungry right now, so I might try getting some food down. The surgery only took 20 minutes, then an hour or more for me to wake up from the anesthesia. My medicine is disgusting.


I get my tonsils out tomorrow

Posted on 2005.12.12 at 21:28
Current Mood: nervousnervous
I woke up this morning with a sore throat and haven't been feeling well today. I'll be going to bed in a few minutes after I post this. Pray that tonight's sleep will make me better 'cause I can't be sick going into this.

I have to be at the surgery center at 8:45 tomorrow morning. I can't eat or drink anything after midnight. The procedure should only take about 30 minutes. I'm praying that God will be with the doctors through this procedure and there will not be any complications. It's very rare these days for anyone my age or older to get their tonsils out, the recovery will be a lot harder for me because of my age.

The biggest thing I am nervous about is the anesthesia. They had to gas me my senior year to get veniers on my teeth and I didn't handle it well at all. I hate getting gassed, I don't like the feeling at all. It took them a while to calm me down for them to continue giving the anesthesia to me.

Alright, well here I go. I'm gonna go get some sleep. I feel really bad right now, my throat hurts pretty bad. I'm hoping its all in my tonsils so they'll cut that out 'cause I don't need any more soreness than what I'll be going through afterwards. Thank you all who have already been praying. I don't think I've ever been so nervous about anything, I'm almost in tears I'm so nervous.



Make it stop!

Posted on 2005.12.07 at 19:18
Current Mood: coldcold
For the first time, it's white out side, and I don't like it. Usually I'm sooo excited when it gets icey and white outside. But this time? No. For one, it's not enough to play in, so it's not ufn. It's just enough to ruin travel on the roads...so what does this mean? Possible postponing of finals. I can't do that! I have a dentist appointment back home on Monday morning then surgery to get my tonsils out on Tuesday. I can't afford this weather. Actually, my finals, one of them my teacher is leaving Friday to go out of the country, so that will probably just be canceled. My other one...well I should be working on my notecards for that right now. If class is canceled tomorrow then my friends and I are planning on calling our teacher and convincing her to email us the final and let us email it back 'cause it's practically an open book test anyways since she is letting us bring in notecards for the test. My problem...I've been finishing a project that I need to turn in. If no one is there tomorrow or Friday to open the education building...hmmm I don't know what I'll do to get it turned in. I can email in half of it, but the other half is my student's work that I've been doing at the elementary school the past couple of months. All I'm doing is praying that this weather lets up and the ice starts melting. I can't believe that I'm actually wanting this icey white ground weather to go away. Wow, I'm surprised.


My God is Amazing!

Posted on 2005.11.16 at 08:50
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Things are already getting better. I woke up content this morning, no harsh feelings, no anger, no sadness, just me knowing that I got quality time with God last night, and I'm happy. I woke up at 8 so I could exercise this morning, but my head isn't in it. I've got a lot of homework to work on before tomorrow with leaving for Nashville. Tomorrow I can't do homework 'cause I've designated it to studying it for my last chance this semester to pass the practice PPR so I can take the second test to get certified to teach.

So last night was good. I got ready for bed, grabbed my Bible, my journal and my lessons for Good News Club and Small Group. I wrote my prayer out in my journal, read my Bible, went over the Good News Club lesson and Small Group lesson. I'm really excited about our lesson in Small Group tonight. I hope it goes as well as I'm excited for it. It kinda stinks with the time limit we have 'cause I want to do more than one activity with it, but it'll still be good.

God, I thank you so much for always being here for me, I know it's gotta be frustrating watching my faith/commitment fluctuate, it's frustrating for me to go through it. How nice it would be to be protected from all sin and not have this problem. Hopefully this is another lesson I can take and grow from. Father God, thank you.

Now I've got 2 hours before class and I need to get around and work on a lot of homework.

Oh and I almost forgot! I'm really starting to get into this Christmas mood. I've been listening to Christmas music for a couple weeks now, and I changed my live journal completely last night to make it as Christmasy as possible. Hope you like it! :)


Okay God,

Posted on 2005.11.15 at 21:56
Current Mood: sadhelpless
I'm tired of running. I have been so stressed and in a poor mood for a while. It mainly started Friday, due to me being a girl, but it hasn't gone away, and I can't remember the last time I've been this moody and for this long. I know that once I finally break down and go to you and spend more time than usual with you then I'll start to get better. But for some reason I'm running away. I feel unworthy and I have been crabby to almost everyone I come in contact with. Friday we leave to go to Nashville for the Youth Specialties Youth Workers Convention. I'd like to get over this slump before then 'cause I see myself breaking down and dealing with everything at once, as usual. I want to overcome my fear to face the things in my life that need to be changed, but I get that nudge that says, "keep running away, it'll be okay." And I know thats not you God telling me that. I know you are waiting with arms open wide. So God, here I come, all a mess, and I'm sorry. I've got this messed up image thinking that life will be better once I'm out of school and done with having to deal with pointless classes that haven't helped me, but I know in reality that things will only get harder. I am where I am so I can become stronger and face things after this. I don't even want to face things now. I am so lucky to have a loving God who is here for me even when I refuse to go to Him first even when I know its the best thing to do. God, there is a lot of work for you to do in me. A lot of things I need to change and learn. Lord, I'm still resisting, but I ask that you embrace me and break me down. Lord help me.


Bible Mad Gab

Posted on 2005.11.15 at 17:45
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
They've got a Bible edition of Mad Gab. I saw it online last week and have been trying to find a store that carries it. What I saw online was the travel version of the game. So I called Family Christian Store to see if they had it, and they do, the full version for $29.99. I've got a coupon for $25 off my entire purchase at Family Christian. So it'd cost me $22.50. I don't think I can validate that right now. I did have fun talking to the guy who was helping me though. I had to be put on hold for a few minutes, so he was very nice with his southern accent carrying on a conversation with me. We talked about the game and about Christmas music, I think he is the first guy I know that enjoys Christmas music this early. I am impressed! I might try another Christian bookstore in Fort Worth and Mardels to see if they have the travel version of Bible Mad Gab. Hmmm.

Oh! And I'm loving this cold weather! Too bad I don't have anymore hot chocolate. I might just have to have a cup of my Yogi Throat Comfort Tea. Mmmm.



Posted on 2005.11.11 at 16:41
Current Mood: lonelylonely
It really stinks living over here in the dorm in Fort Worth. Yesterday was fun, I got to spend most of the day with Melanie and Beth. But today, I haven't seen or talked to anyone. I've cooped myself in my room. I woke up at 9, then went to Best Buy at about 10 (so I have left my room) got back at about 11 and worked out 'til 12. Since then I've spent the last 5 hours infront of this dumb computer and it's driving me insane. I can't wait until January where I'll be living in a town where I know people I can call up to hang out. So I'm trying to get myself psyched up to clean my room and work on my final project. I'm just really sad and lonely right now and I can't stand it.


Trying to get fit.

Posted on 2005.11.11 at 13:27
Current Mood: happyhealthy
Theres a number of reasons I'm trying to get fit. The main one...it just makes me feel better. I was finally able to find the work out dvd I researched online. Best Buy is now my store to get work out dvds, they've got a wide collection.
So I tried out my new work out this morning. It's got 5 different 10 minute work outs. Each one seemed much shorter than that today...'cause it was new. I even did the beginning one twice...for a nice 60 minute work out. I feel great!

This video came with a 7 Day Body Bootcamp Meal Plan and Dos and Dont's. I figured I'd share the Dos and Donts.

*Do drink more water. The range, depending upon the individual, age and activity level is ideally between 60-128 ounces of water per day.
*Do eat every 3 hours, 5-6 small meals a day - No Skipping OR Snacking!
*Do eat two complex carbohydrates per day (preferably at breakfast or lunch), combining them with a protein soursce.
*Do feel comfortable going out to eat: choose lean protein sources such as chicken, fish or turkey, and request that it be grilled, baked, poached or steamed, with sauce on the side; have a large salad with non-fat or low-fat dressing ont he side; drink 2 large glasses of water before your meal; make sure to say no to cheese, butter, or any type of white sauce; choose brown rice or plain baked potato instead of bread; and stick to sampling other people's deserts rather than ordering your own.
*Do try to plan what you're going to eat each day and what you need to bring with you, the night before - avoid making poor meal choices or going on food binges because of lack of planning.
*Do take bottled water, healthy snacks and essential nutrients on trips away from home (including when you're traveling to and from home in your car).

*Don't try to make up for skipped workouts or overeating by going crazy with your cardio - your body doesn't work that way and you wont see any real imporovements by needlessly exhausting yourself.
*Don't consume simple sugars, sweets, white flour and processed foods (whenever possible).
*Don't include processed foods containing hydrogenated oils and fats in your diet.
*Don't overdo it on salad dressing - stick to 2-3 tablespoons of low-fat or non-fat dressing, and always have a restraunt bring it on the side so you can see how much is being used.
*Don't eat 2-3 hours before going to bed.
*Don't drink more than 1 beverage with caffeine a day. (Drink Green Tea instead).
*Don't drink any sodas of any kind!
*Don't eat more than one protein bar a day, try to keep the sugar content in any protein bar to less than 9 grams, and keep it to 1/2 a bar at a sitting.
*Don't consume more than 20-30 grams of fat per day, and limit your saturated fat to 10% of your total daily intake.
*Don't set unrealistic expectations for yourself - this will only frustrate and de-motivate you.

My new workout I'm doing is great...it has really stepped up my work out intensity...it's:

10 Minute Solution: Kickbox Bootcamp


God is Great!

Posted on 2005.11.10 at 11:23
Current Mood: gratefulgrateful
Yesterday before youth group Michael came up to give me a thing of French Bread! It was soooo sweet. I had posted a while back how much I was craving bread...so I got some! That was one of the sweetest and nicest things someone has done for me in a long time...(Tim didn't like it too much when I said that...sorry Tim). It was just very thoughtful and unexpected. Thank you so much Michael!

And....another cool thing.
Last night when I was leaving Carrollton there was a lady sitting on the corner of Frankford and McCoy with her car in the Left lane of McCoy at the stop light.
I had seen a couple people stranded on the side of the road, and have always wanted to stop and help...and then feel guilty for not...so I passed by and pulled into the church parking lot and walked over to her. I asked if she needed to borrow my phone, but said that she had just called someone and that they would be coming...she thought she had just ran out of gas. She thanked me for stopping and checking and I went on my way. Only regret...I wish I asked if she wanted me to stay and wait with her until her friend got there. Oops...maybe God will give me another opportunity. It did make me happy that there was a time that I could stop. I don't feel safe stopping if theres a man pulled on the side of the road...and I don't usually feel safe stopping at night...but the fact that she was sitting on the corner of our church property I felt pretty safe...plus I prayed the whole time I was walking up to her.

Theres my excitement for yesterday. Thank you God for the opportunity and for a good friend like Michael!
(The bread is almost gone...I shared half of with with the jr. high girls...and have been munching on it...had some for breakfast even!)

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